My life obsession with food

For as long as I can remember my life revolved around food. I loved to eat. I would wake up and eat. I would go to school and eat on the way. At school I would already be planning on what to do for lunch and counting down the minutes from as soon as I walked in the door.

I love food. Who doesn't? Most of us love food, but we love it as we are eating it. I had a love affair with it. I let it control my life and my days.

At 29 years old it was time to change that. I have tried to diet, I have joined the gym and even had a trainer. Nothing worked. Now it was time to do something different. I decided that I had to take extreme actions and get surgery. I couldn't do it on my own. After all I loved food. How can I part with the first love of my life? How can I leave the food behind?

Its easy. I decided that I want to live longer for my kids and my wife.  At 29 I am a father of 3 beautiful children ages 5, 3 & 5 months. I have been married for nearly 6 years to my beautiful wife. And now it was time to think about the long term.

A friend of mine is a life insurance salesman and has been on my case to get life insurance for the past 2 years. 2 years ago I finally agreed. I filled out the paperwork and went for a medical evaluation. I couldn't afford it nor should I pay what they were asking for. As a result of me being fat they wanted me to pay more than I do a month for my mortgage. The insurance company knew what I had known for years. That at the rate I was going I wouldn't live forever.

Not that I ever planned on living forever, but I want to live to see my kids grow, get married and have kids of their own. The insurance company and their doctors who evaluated me were willing to bet against that. They bet that at the rate that I was growing I wouldn't get to see all of that.

I decided that I would ignore my friend and not buy insurance until a later time. But how long can I wait? I am the primary earner in my family. If I had a heart attack tomorrow or if I got hit by a car crossing the street I would leave my wife and kids with nothing. But I can't get insurance now. I just can not afford to spend so much money on something that hopefully I will not need till many years from now.

I have been blessed to have the opportunity in life to be on track to where I want to be professionally. I work really hard and travel more than I would like to. But I am at the stage of building my future while being happy with where I am in life.

So I have a great family, a great career, a wonderful life...

But I am fat and it was time to change.